I accept myself. I acknowledge my shortcomings. I no longer run from my mistakes. I did it, but I won’t stay there. I know where I fall short. I’m ok with me. Each day will reveal a greater me. Seemingly simple statements, but sometimes being able to say these things to yourself is the hardest thing you’ll ever have to do. I say that because it took me a long time to be able to face myself in the mirror and repeat these things. You see, I have done some things that I never thought I would do and messed up big time. Because of those things I no longer believed in myself. Although I acknowledged the things I’d done, I still kept myself bound in guilt and shame. I allowed my past to hold me prisoner. Even when I’ve tried things and they haven’t worked out, I would say to myself that I did not deserve those good things anyways after all that I had done. It was not until I began to accept the things that I could not change,and acknowledge my shortcomings, that I realized that life is full of mistakes. However, what you choose to do after the mistake can determine the course of your life from that point forward. I came to a point of accepting that I am not perfect, and accepting that there are some things about me that needed to change. Once I got there I was able to begin living again. Some things you’ll never seem to forget, but you can go on and live. Never allow anything or anyone to keep you so lost in your past that you neglect your present, which ultimately stops you from having a future. Accept who you are and everything that has made you who are today, and do what you can to make yourself better than you have ever been.
When we first start out on a journey we are excited and thrilled to begin the journey. As we go along, we meet with obstacles. Things do not work out as planned, or they do work out as planned, but we realize that they do not have the results we hoped for. Regardless, we become less enchanted with the journey and more focused on the obstacles.We begin to second guess ourselves and think that maybe we talked ourselves into something that is really impossible to achieve. We almost give up. Then something or someone reminds us to dream again. For the last couple of years I have been focused on reaching my goals and seeing my dreams come true before my eyes, but it seems that in the last couple of months I have had to overcome more obstacles than I have experienced success. A few nights ago, at about 2 am, I prepared to go to sleep. As I was in the bed trying to go to sleep I could not because I kept seeing visions in my head. I saw visions of the people I would talk to and the things I would say, and I began to believe in my dream again. I was given a jumpstart to get me back on the right path. For the last few weeks, unbeknownst even to myself, I had almost given up the dream thinking that it was impossible to achieve. However, I realized that I can never give up because my dream is not just about me. Many of us have dreams that we have allowed to die. We have allowed obstacles and low points to get us off track. It is time for us to get it back together. Our dream will help someone else if we live it out. So simply put, regardless of what is happening in our lives it is time for us to dream again.
Already in the first few days of the new year I have come up against some tremendous obstacles, and even before the first week has been completed I have contemplated giving up on some things. But I did not give up. It seemed like everything conspired against me to get me to throw my hands up in despair and walk away, but I refused to quit. Today, as I mulled over the things that have been happening, I realized that the things that have happened in the first few days of this year have been designed to show me things about myself. If I never had the emotional moments, I would not have recognized my own strength and personal growth. Today, I was able to face myself and acknowledge that I am no longer the person I was even last year. I am much stronger. Who I was before would have run away at the first sign of trouble. I would not have bore down on my heels and faced the obstacles head on. For the first time today I recognized the power of a stubborn streak. It would not let me quit. In the midst of everything I was able to recognize the things that I tolerate, and able to recognize consequences of decisions. I talked myself into making logical decisions rather than emotional decisions. Because of that I was able to reach the desired conclusion rather than have to double back and figure out ways to fix what I messed up through emotional decision-making. The circumstances of the last few days have shown me much about myself that I may have never realized if I did not go through what I have. I have revived my confidence in myself, which helps me to be confident when I encourage others. Even those who encourage others sometimes need encouragement, but this encouragement may have to come from self rather than others. Some situations are all about me. They help to make me better. When I am able to deal with the all about me stuff then I can deal with the things that allow me to focus on everyone else. It is ok to sometimes deal with yourself so that you are not causing more trouble to others. In the end, our lives are about how we can give to others and build up each other First though, we have to be built on strong foundation of surety within ourselves. For the first three days of the year it has been all about me. Now it’s time to get back to all about you! Happy New Me! Happy 2012 Everyone!
It’s a new year! As we begin this year many of us have made New Year’s resolutions. Unfortunately, many of us also forget about these resolutions as soon as we realize the effort it takes to keep up the resolution. I am guilty of doing this in year’s past, but this year I decided that I would not make a blanket list of resolutions at the beginning of the year. Instead I chose to make a new decision about my life each day. At the start of each day I will decide what I want to accomplish in that day, and I will do all I can to make sure that I reach the goal. There are some long-term goals that need proper planning. That is when I actually sit down and write out my plan to accomplish my goal instead of making a resolution I probably will not keep. I’ll keep this short and sweet…decide what you want each day. Accomplish that goal. Write out a plan for long-term goals. Either way, this new year is an opportunity for a new you. We have never been in this place before, 2012. This is a great time to recreate who you are for the better. Happy new you!