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From the Heart of Grace Waters…

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Speaking Into the Silence

Lately, I have been a bit discouraged. Yes, even me…the motivator, the one who encourages others, the one who always has positive things to say and pushes others out of their low moments, yes me…and it has been one of those times when only those who are closest to me, or those who cared to really pay attention, have known just how discouraged I have been. Built in to the discouragement has been hurt, disappointment, let downs, and being looked over–a convoluted concoction of negativity. It almost made me give up, not just “throwing in the towel”, but burning it to the point where the thought of doing what I am supposed to do does not rise again. At least, those were my thoughts. Even the most optimistic people get down when it seems support is overwhelmingly lacking, when it seems “everyone else” gets the attention you wished you could, or even when those you count on to be there when you need them have better things to do. We are definitely all human, and no matter your purpose/passion, you still have a heart that can be hurt. So, I contemplated giving everything up, figuring no one would miss what I have to say or what I do, and just when I got to that point of give up, I heard something within me say “Speak to the silence”.

My first thought after that was, “Why should I? What difference will it make?” But when I thought about it more, clarity began to come. I began to remember the times when I have literally thought I am writing, speaking, or advocating to myself due to the lack of response, but then from nowhere someone would comment or write to me telling me how something I said had touched their lives. I then began to remember the times that even writing down what I was feeling was cathartic for me and got me out of my feelings. From there, I thought about how many times I have not responded to something others have said or written, and how they too could be feeling like I have recently felt, but the fact was that their words had meant something because I remembered them. So, as I thought, I realized that while the silence can be deafening, there is still life in the silence. There are still listening ears and watching eyes in the silence. Lives can still be changed, and passions can be built just by me deciding to do what I am meant to–even when I feel unheard and unseen.

Maybe you have felt that you are unnecessary, or that your words mean nothing. As you look around, it seems others have support, but you are alone…and maybe if that is the case at the moment, know that you were built for this. Who you are and what you do is necessary for SOMEONE on this vast planet of ours, and if you stop speaking/writing/motivating/marketing/encouraging, you will miss your opportunity to put an imprint even on that ONE person’s life. I know the process is difficult. I understand wanting to be embraced and encouraged. I also understand wanting to just sink into the background not thinking you will be missed, but keep speaking even when the silence gets deafening. Keep being even when it costs everything within you to be. Keep believing when everything around you makes it seem that what you are believing in and for will never happen. As long as you are alive, there is a possibility of having everything your brilliant mind could ever imagine, so get back to speaking to the silence. One day, there won’t just be echos, but a response. Keep going.


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The First Step

I’ve heard it said that the journey of a thousand miles begins with taking the first step. I agree. However, life does not always allow you to be able to think of a thousand mile journey when you’re struggling to get through today. For some of us, it really is about one day at a time, step-by-step, and acknowledging the moments as they take place. Sometimes our journey is about understanding that we cannot always jump from 0-100 without addressing the 1, 2, 3, 4…in between. When we try to think that far ahead, it can be overwhelming, frustrating, and heartbreaking. I learned something recently that I thought I would share. In my head I had plans for all of the great things I will eventually do. I was excited about every dream I have seen, and every desire being fulfilled. I still am excited, so that has not changed. In my excitement though, I began to look at my current situation. It seemed no one believed in my vision but me. I could not figure out how I could go from my today and get to that dream moment when my current situation may not lend credence to anything I have dreamed. Once I began to overshadow excitement with doubt, frustration, and covered my eyes, I lost the ability to see. My dream was still there. It had not changed its position. It had not become impossible. I had simply refused to take the first step because I was afraid that I would never reach my destination. I became encased in fear and doubt rather than trusting that each step would bring me closer to my goal. Instead of doing something, I did nothing, which in turn got me nowhere but stuck in a rut of my own making. So, to you who may be considering a dream. Don’t let yourself become overwhelmed by seeming obstacles and impossibilities. Don’t be afraid to take that first step, then to take the subsequent steps. Eventually that thousand mile journey will go down to 800 miles, 600 miles, 400 miles, 200 miles, and at some point you will realize that you have reached your destination. You can make it to what you have seen, if only you will take it one day at a time, and take the first step.


Dream Awakening

It’s easy to doubt yourself. Especially so when you look around at everyone else in your circle, and it seems that they are so much further than you are. Since we are always our own worst critic, it seems that EVERYONE else is successful while we have SO MUCH more to do. Recently, I found myself in this place. I have very successful friends and associates in many different industries. Many of them have obtained a certain degree of fame and wealth, and on the outside it appears that they have everything under control. Looking at their testimonies of what they are now able to do, and the life they are able to live, it made me get down on myself. Like everyone else, I had a lot of dreams I wanted to accomplish when I was younger. I just knew that by this time I would be in a certain place. But, as we all know, life happens. Things come up. Obstacles can get us off course. That does not mean that where you are headed has changed, just the path. I lost track of that. I thought that because MY plan had not worked, then I was not successful. I forgot to look at the successes I have had along the way. I forgot to look at every low moment I have climbed out of. I neglected to take into account the times I almost gave up, but I took the “towel” back. No, my life is not where I want it to be, but I can do something about that. I can change that. I am not relegated to a cold, dismal place where dreams go to die. I can choose life for every dream that sleeps on the inside of me. I have to first choose to believe in the dream, then put some actions to those dreams. Others around you may be successful. They may have things going their way. Be happy for them. It is a blessing to be in the company of success. While celebrating them, begin to build you. Do what you know to do. Do what you are passionate about. Give life to your dreams, and they will give life to you. I dare you to dream again. I dare you to believe in you again. I dare you to trust in what is in you, and allow it to bless others through you. It is not too late. You are not too old. You did not mess up too bad. Great things are waiting to run into you, so be ready when they do. Dream.